Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in uuthrunthru's LiveJournal:

Saturday, December 13th, 2008
8:47 am	01. What are your nicknames? Beth, Bethy, Beatle Bethy 02. How do you style your hair? My hair styles itself. 03. What's new in your life right now? I'm excited and packing for a short trip to Honolulu, next week. 04. How many colours are you wearing now? threeish 05. Are you an introvert or extrovert? Extrovert 06. What was the last book you read? I'm Not Myself Lately by Josh Kilmer-Purcell 07. Do you nap a lot? Define a lot. 08.What household appliance are you? A blender. 09. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days? Listening to the news. 10. What's your favorite dessert? Hard to name one thing. Something chocolate is always nice. 11. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Minutes. 12. What websites do you visit daily? The Stranger, 13. What classes are you taking right now? And if you're not in school any more, what's your job? Teaching nutrition in elementary schools. 14. Do you like to clean? I don't mind. Especially if the results can be clearly seen afterward. (Ditto) 15. What's the last song that got stuck in your head? Everyday is a Winding Road, just minutes ago, so it's there right now! 16. What's the last movie you saw? Stop Making Sense. 17. What's better: eternal love or memorable love? Memorable can mean unforgettably bad, and usually does. I'll go with eternal. I'd have to agree. 18. What is your least favorite thing to do that you have to do everyday? Look at my self-styled hair. 19. Best time of your life? My life is and has been pretty great- can't pick one specific time. 20. What are you most looking forward to in the coming month? The beauty of Hawaii, of course. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 12th, 2006
5:42 pm	Thoughts in a New Year I didn't send a holiday card again this year. No real reason beyond laziness. But recently, I had a shocking and powerful reminder of how our lives can be irreparably changed, in an instant. So, here is my personal New Year greeting to you all. Not the average, but heartfelt, none the less. I try to be mindful and fairly intentional about my life. I know I'm fortunate to have the friends and family I do. I try to acknowledge what I have and express gratitude for it. I absolutely, know that while the actions and decisions I make about my life, definitely have great impact on how my life goes, there is an element of luck or grace--call it what you want. I don't need to name the source, I just mean it's something else, that I have no control over and it will fall either in my favor or to my detriment, and sometimes it takes a while to figure out which it was. My friend Laura and I were driving, on our way to our weekly rehearsal of our singing group, Calyx. As we approached the large uphill climb of Alabama Hill, Laura was chatting to me about something. Can't remember what, but I was paying attention, when I noticed that the car coming down the hill, looming in front of us, was sending up small clouds of grit as the tires hit the dirt and sand that accumulates in the center of the lane. I don't know why that caught my attention, but it did, so I watched and realized that the car was traveling at an excessive amount of speed, especially for coming down such a steep hill. I started to say to Laura, "look how fast that car is coming at us", but as I spoke, the car crossed into the other lane--our lane--and my only thought was that it was out of control and I wanted us off the road. I immediately pulled across the street, into a driveway- to get our car totally off of the road. As we crossed, we saw the car sideswipe an SUV then plow headfirst into the passenger-side of another smaller vehicle. The sound of it was not like TV or movie crash sounds. No tinkling glass. It seemed that we were in slow motion as we watched pieces of cars flying and the original car spin crazily, until finally coming to a stop, across the street and up a half block from us, amidst the ruin. Frank has asked me what kind of car it was. I have no idea. When it was still, it was unrecognizable. The entire front end was gone. I couldn't stop myself from staring at the drivers window to see if there was any movement from inside. There wasn't. I think I saw blond hair, and then I moved into a position from which I couldn't see it anymore. Didn't want to. I heard on the news, later, that was a lone woman in the car. She died at the scene. Laura (a doctor) ran to the car that had been hit on the passenger side, and was closest to us. The driver, a large man, maybe in his 60's? was lurching out of the car, in shock and saying he had to call Carol, but couldn't find his cell phone. Laura and another man, got him to lay down on the ground, as Laura produced her own cell phone and promised she would call for him, if he would just lie still. His airbag had gone off and maybe saved his life. She said he had a large goose egg over one eye, but no other obvious cuts. I stood there, feeling helpless, marveling at and blessing Laura for her calm in this surreal situation. I watched as people ran over to the wrecked car. From the look of the car, it had to be bad. The reactions of the people who went to it, confirmed that it was. The medics, firetruck, police were there within minutes. Laura said later that she didn't do anything either, but she held that mans hand and told him he was going to be alright. He told her he was "feeling pretty anxious" and she said "yes, so am I and that seems totally appropriate!" So, it's taken me, probably, 50 times longer to write this than the actual event took. I'm doing it partly because I needed to get it out, but I'm sending it to you to remind you and myself to put stuff in perspective. Whatever issues you may be struggling with, whatever hurts you may be nursing, consider how, in an instant, life can change. I also take this as a !wake-up! opportunity to tell those that I love, that I'm grateful to have you in my life, and still be here to tell you so. Current Mood: grateful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:55 pm	Before I ever heard of QAF, or wrote any Ben/Michael stories, I did a little songwriting, and a lot of singing. Part of my preelection (Nov 2004)activities was to raise $$ for MoveOn.org, so a friend and I did a musical fund raiser, and I wrote this song, especially for that night. This is me singing lead and a couple of other friends doing backup vocals and instruments. Listen to Four year Old Love Current Mood: confused Current Music: Four Year Old Love (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
3:51 pm	Into the Dark Title: Into the Dark Author:uuthrunthru Date: December 1,2005 Rating: R Notes: This was inspired by Mikou's recent story 'Charlotte's Web.' I was intrigued by what might have been going on in Ben's mind, in his darkest hours. Mikou usually proof's my stuff, but I wanted to surprise her with this, so here it is 'warts and all.' Of course I'd like to hear what you think of it. ( read the rest of my story here ) Current Mood: determined (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
7:44 pm	Title: Recovery (part 8 final chapter!!) Author: uuthrunthru Summary: a multi-part piece that looks at how Michael and Ben deal with some of the events in S5. Rating: NC-17 Warning: spoilers for season 5! Disclaimer: I own nothing. CowLip, Russell Davies, Showtime own everyone. I’m not turning a profit... It's been a long road for Michael and Ben.. and me, too! This is the last chapter in the Recovery story and I have to say it's been a wonderful experience. I've 'met' some great folks through this project. I'd especially like to thank Mikou, for superior beta reading/editing, above and beyond the call of volunteer duty. Also, for creating the beautiful Recovery Banner below. I don't think this is my last story, but hopefully one of you will carry on anything here that I didn't finish enough. Thank you all for reading my debut effort and for your comments, over the life of this story. Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
5:06 pm	Hello, My friend Carrie wrote this song, and our singing group recorded it. I think it fits how Justin and Brian might see their relationship and thought some of you might enjoy it, even if your aren't huge Brian Justin shippers. Let me know what you think. Listen to Perfect Goodbye (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 18th, 2005
4:17 pm	Title: Recovery (part 5) Author: uuthrunthru Summary: a multi-part piece that looks at how Michael and Ben deal with some of the events in S5. Rating: NC-17 Warning: spoilers for season 5! Disclaimer: I own nothing. CowLip, Russell Davies, Showtime own everyone. I’m not turning a profit... Hello All! I'm late getting this posted. Things are starting to overwhelm poor Ben and Michael and me as well! Click on the beautiful mini banner below to read part 5. Then go to Mikou's site and see the full-sized one! Current Mood: content Current Music: Equinox (Comment on this)
Friday, September 9th, 2005
5:31 pm	Title: Recovery (part 4) Author: uuthrunthru Summary: a multi-part piece that looks at how Michael and Ben deal with some of the events in S5. Rating: NC-17 Warning: spoilers for season 5 and SEX! Disclaimer: I own nothing. CowLip, Russell Davies, Showtime own everyone. I’m not turning a profit... Hi Everyone! Well, here's #4. I lightened up the mood a bit with, what else..SEX. As always, I'd love to read your comments for Part 4 Current Mood: embarrassed (Comment on this)
Monday, September 5th, 2005
3:14 pm	Recovery parts 2 and 3 Title: Recovery (parts 2&3) Author: uuthrunthru Summary: a multi-part piece that looks at how Michael and Ben deal with some of the events in S5. Rating: NC-17 Warning: spoilers for season 5 Disclaimer: I own nothing. CowLip, Russell Davies, Showtime own everyone. I’m not turning a profit... Hi Everyone! I just posted the next 2 parts of my S5 saga over at LITN, and wanted to suggest that you watch kitten_of_rain's great Michael/Ben video, Hanging By the Moment, then read Recovery's new parts. They go well together. As always, I'd love to read your comments Parts 2 &3 Current Mood: relieved (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
10:47 am	New QAF fiction Title: Recovery (part 1) Author: uuthrunthru Summary: a multi-part piece looking at what life after bombing might be like for Michael and Ben. Rating: NC-17 Warning: spoilers for season 5 Disclaimer: I own nothing. CowLip, Russell Davies, Showtime own everyone. I’m not turning a profit... Hi All. I'm a new member here, but have been 'lurking in the shadows' for months. You all seem like such nice folks, thought I'd take the plunge. I'm also new to the writing end of fan fic, but have enjoyed reading so many of yours. Please have a look and let me know what you think. Part 1 is at LITN, with more to follow soon. Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Soccer Practise- Jonny McGovern (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 30th, 2005
9:06 pm	Recovery part 1 I just posted my first ever fan fic to LITN, and hope it gets accepted. It was fun and satisfying to write but it took ALL BLINKIN' DAY!  Who has that much time!! Anyway, I hope you read it and give me (nicely) your opinions and constructive comments. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: silence is golden (2 Comments |Comment on this)